i need therapy... oh wait... i AM in therapy...

maybe it's time i have another visit with dr. therapist.

i'm not sure when my life will resemble "normal" again. all i know is that i'm TIRED of feeling sorry for myself!! and i'm TIRED of feeling so BLAH- all the time-- these days.

i need to DO SOMETHING.

i need SOLUTIONS to my stupid-ass little problems.

AND I need to get ON with my life!!

if i'd put HALF as much energy into getting out of my lonely little den of hell and MEETING some people as i do sitting here worrying and thinking and analyzing every little "shoulda, woulda, coulda" that I can think up regarding the last 5 to 8 years of my life-- I might actually be making PROGRESS!!!!!

DAMMIT!!

so that's my lecture to myself for this weekend.